Draw Near

In the past few weeks, I have been more susceptible and open to God's voice. Campmeeting this year was very different than last year - it was NOT the first year without John, I was NOT dating someone who also goes to CM, and I am in a much healthier, stronger, and more lovely place than I have been in the past. Campmeeting, being different and new for me, was very much anticipated by myself for the spiritual renewal and connections that traditionally occur in the sacred campgrounds. Being surrounded by life-long friends whom I see as family, my own family as well, and the glory of God all around makes it difficult to not see and taste the love of God.

This summer was a great one - filled with new people, new experiences, and getting settled in. This weekend was the first chance I have had to just BE here in Midland - no agenda, just relaxing and working on my GRE preparations (yes, I am taking the GRE...PRAY!). It was not until this weekend that I realized how exhausting my summer was! Being new in town and working all week and going out of town on weekends and establishing new relationships - all of these things are good and fun but wear down the body. I used the past three days to recover and refresh myself. I had a few good, strong cries (do NOT see "The Help" if you are not in a cry mood...you will fail), dug into the Word a bit, cleaned house, and had some time to sport my swimsuit - FINALLY!

In Bible Study yesterday, we discussed James 4: draw near to God and He will draw near to God. God is just like any of us in the fact that He wants us to show need and affection towards Him. Haven't you ever been in a relationship where you felt that you were the initiator of time and attention, so much so that you pull back until they clue-in and share the role of initiator? God is similar - He wants and hopes for us to draw near to Him, to share our thoughts and worries and plans and tears and laughter. He created us to worship and love Him - He in turn loves and protects us. It is only you and the Spirit that truly KNOW you...and manytimes only the Spirit KNOWS you because he knows what you have yet to see and experience in yourself. Seek the face of God. Listen to his direction and words. Soak up His Grace and Loyalty.

Right now I am very much at a place of NEEDING to listen to and hear from God. Life plans are changing, I am growing, and I am needing direction from the One who knows me best and has the Big Plan for my life. Are you open to and aware of God's voice and direction in your life? Let us each pray for open eyes and open ears, for open arms to the presence of our Father.

Marfa means...I need to get back out there! My soul is ready for some Marfa refreshing!